So recently I have been so busy. All I seem to be doing is work and school, and it's starting to really stress me out. I never seem to be at home and I'm snacking all the time so I'm pretty sure I've gained loads back and I'm worried that I've gained. I really need to lose some more. So here is the plan:
21 day fast, probably a liquid fast to try keep me going ( this is starting december)
Then after I'm going to eat a bit of fruit and vegetables and a bit of protein
Then after christmas I'm starting ABC
So that is the plan for quite a while, and I'm hoping that I will lose quite a bit doing this. I really want to be skinny for my birthday (april 1st) So I have quite a while to lose all this weight. I'm hoping to lose about 50lbs. It's going to be a lot of hard work but I'm willing to do it.
So anyway , about today. Well today is my parents evening and I'm worried about what they are going to say as I've not been doing very well I've been more focusing on food. So I don't know what they'll say. So wish me luck haha. I have loads of coursework to do and I haven't finished my university applications. So I'm really hoping. Also afterward I have gymnastics afterward and I'm going to do my judging qualification so I can judge in competitions so I'm really excited about that. So I'm really busy at the moment and I'm trying to update as much as I can.
I'm really thankful to anyone that looks at my blog it means a lot. I'm shocked that any of you actually want to read about me haha.
Saturday, 24 November 2012
Friday, 23 November 2012
Tuesday, 20 November 2012
So things are going well with the detox, starting to feel a bit tired though, Also it's hard to keep it a secret from my mum as I don't want her finding out as she will stop me doing it. It's a lot easier now though because I work a lot so I'm barely ever at home anyway.
Friday, 16 November 2012
So on monday I'm starting a detox of water, lemon and honey. I'm having three glasses a day and then just plain water. I shall be doing this for 2 week and I'm hoping that it will kick start my weight loss again. Just hoping that I can manage 2 weeks with no binging as at the moment I just can't stop. So I want to lose 10 pounds on this. Once I'm finished I will just eat fruit and vegetables for a while and see how that goes. I just don't want to be fat for christmas.
Tuesday, 13 November 2012
So this week has been quite hard so far, school have been rushing us for our university application so it means i'm stressing out about how well i've done and to make sure everything is okay. Even though i'm still not positive I want to go. I mean it seems to be fun and everyone says it's a great experience. Also I have my dance presentation tonight, and I'm dreading it. I am going to look fat next to all the other girls and I don't want them to see me like this. I just want to be skinny and look cute in the outfits. As well I'm sorry I haven't made a post in a while but I have been working a lot recently, I want to work I need the money but I barely ever see friends anymore which is good because they can't make me eat but they keep complaining that I don't come out so I don't know what to do.
Thursday, 8 November 2012
Thank you everyone thats commented, means a lot to me. I appreciate that you all care I am trying to keep myself busy so i don't cut. I work most nights or go to dance so it's quite easy. Nothing much has really happened since last time. Just trying to get through life day by day.
Tuesday, 6 November 2012
Thursday, 1 November 2012
I GAINED!! I feel so helpless, and i'm desperate to lose this weight, I really need to stop binging but I can't stop binging. I restrict fine during the day and then it gets to the evening and it's just binge binge binge. But now I really am going to be strict with myself. I want this weight of asap. Need to decide what i'm going to do to get it off.